I have been actively involved in my ROTC unit since my freshman year, but I’ve come to realize that it is more of a burden than a pleasure. I rarely enjoy doing things anymore because of the people that I encountered within the program. Next year I’m supposed to have a lot of responsibilities which I don’t mind; however, I fear that I’m going to feel unhappy throughout much of the year. Lately I’ve been more interested in my health and exercising and yoga more so than anything else. I worked out with the girl’s cross country team and I kind of wish I would have pursued that at the beginning of my freshman year, rather than something that makes me so discontent. I’m going to try girl’s CC even if I know I will be the worst on the team. I mean perhaps I will never compete, but it will be good for me and bring me some happiness… right? who knows. I wish there was a simple solution and maybe more time. Also, there are so much expectations for me within the unit. I can be successful and unhappy there or suck at everything else. Plus I could join other clubs at school. IDK anymore. I really don’t know. at all.
do you ever feel like you like someone a lotmore than they like you and then start to feel like you’re just annoying them because while you always want to talk to them they probably don’t always want to talk to you and it stresses you out a lot and then you just start to feel really depressed about it